I’ve been mulling something over that is making me a bit uneasy. A situation has come up with one of my children that is going to cause me to get out of my comfort zone. I am presented with an opportunity to choose what I want or what my child needs. As you read this, I’m sure you’re thinking, “Well, it’s so obvious! Of course, you choose the child’s needs over the parent’s wants. Kind of a ‘duh’ moment…” And you’re right! Obviously.
But that doesn’t make it any more comfortable or any less scary. Knowing that this is going to happen doesn’t make walking into it any easier. I won’t go into specifics but not because I want to keep it a secret, but because I want you to be able to see how this all applies to so many situations, not only as parents but also as people!
I’m at the point when all the doubts start to enter my mind. “Am I cut out for this?”, “Can I give my child what I believe they need?”, “Is this actually what is best?”, “Is it really so bad if I just… don’t?”, “Maybe I’m misreading everything, and I’m about to disrupt life for something that isn’t even real!”
You see, I’m not one for confrontation. It’s just really not my favorite at any level. Don’t get me wrong; I can mom-rant like a freaking queen! I can destroy the ridiculous atrocities that fly out of my children’s mouths until they have no response, without even taking a breath. I’m a mom-boss when it comes to confronting the bold-faced lies and verbal bombs aimed to destroy the feeling of whatever sibling is within reach.
But that’s the difference. I shut shhh-tuff down, and it’s over. It’s the ongoing battles that make me tired. And this is what I’m focusing on today. This very moment. I was chosen, appointed, destined, whatever you wanna call it… I was made for this moment when it is time to ‘Mom-up” for my child. I have been intentionally using the verbiage of “we do everything for the benefit of the family over the benefit of self.” with my children recently. Because when the family flourishes, we flourish because we are grafted into the family. And now it’s time for me, as the mom, to live out of that truth.
As I was writing out my prayers to The Lord to submit my thoughts to His truth, I was reminded of a verse that has been giving me life the last few weeks
For the Lord your God is living among you.
He is a mighty savior.
He will take delight in you with gladness.
With his love, he will calm all your fears.
He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.
I realized that His perfect love had calmed my fears even before I had the chance to be afraid! I am confident. Not in myself or my ability to navigate this situation, but because I know that my God, who loves perfectly and wholly and who sees far more clearly, has promised never to leave me. He is walking us through the path He has already prepared for us beforehand. I am confident as a mom because I am clinging to my Father.
There are seasons of all types laid out before us at all times. Sometimes we have this belief that since we just went through something hard, we deserve some sort of a break. “Something good is coming my way because I just went through ___(blank)___.” Unfortunately, that’s not anything promised to us. It’s not anything true. What’s true is that “We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed. We are perplexed, but not driven to despair. We are hunted down, but never abandoned by God. We get knocked down, but we are not destroyed. Through suffering, our bodies continue to share in the death of Jesus so that the life of Jesus may also be seen in our bodies.” (2 Corinthians 4:8-10)
So here we go! Not quite through the current one and yet entering into a new one. And it’s all good! It’s all for our good. It’s a gift to depend completely on the faithfulness of a gracious God. It’s an honor to walk through hardship transparently before my children and invite them into areas of brokenness and to hold their hand as we journey through together! It is good because it is already finished. What joy!!
I am praying that you would be encouraged in your current season and that you would press into what your Creator is re-working within your soul. Praying that peace, joy, and comfort would anchor you as you face the giant before you.
I love you all…